Still clueless, but absolutely decisive.
Sometimes, making up your mind is hard to do. But when you finally get around to it, it’s usually the right thing. I sound like Folger’s commercial or something. I make decisions all the time. This last one, the difficult one, the one that was ripping me from the inside out…..well, it’s done. It hurts. Ouch. Sometimes, I wish I were wrong, and that if I am, someone would tell me. I guess I’m not wrong. Hah. I’m not saying I’m NEVER wrong either, but this time, I was right. That’s not always fun. It’s so not fun right now. I wanted to be wrong. It took so long to make this decision because I so desperately wanted to be wrong. I don’t like talking about this. That is why I’m being vague. I’m good at vague. Allude to everything but reality????? I was angry. I was mad. I’m not angry or mad anymore. I’m just sad. I take comfort in knowing I did the right thing, but that does not lessen the sad.
(To you: What are you doing? What are you thinking? Are you ok? Do you think this was the right decision to? Are you sad to?[What if I’m wrong?])